October 06, 2015

Operation Get Back Into Gaming: A Belated Update

Hello everyone! Due to my incredible laziness, I was unable regularly keep posting this series as I would've liked, but nonetheless, I thought I'd jump back in and give you a bit of ye olden update, eh?

As you may know, I've been struggling with a mixture of depression/anxiety, which started about two years ago after we made the big decision to leave a ministry we were part of due to personal and belief-related reasons.

Since then, I've been struggling to find a "place" in life, which lead to a fair amount of depression in late 2013. In 2014, I met a person who entirely changed my life in many ways, some for the better, some for the worse. Much worse, I'm sad to say.

The only good things that came of it was the initial friendship and hard lessons I being mistreated by the person in question. I harbour no feelings of hatred towards them today, but can't pretend that their actions didn't have a profound effect on me.

That's why last year and this year have been a rather rough ride for the blog, as the site is an extension of myself. Whatever I'm feeling in the present day is projected onto the blog, be it subconsciously or not. The depression/anxiety also bled into my general life, and I found myself unable to study properly, unable to write the stories I so dearly desired to write, unable to form comfortable routines, and last not but least, unable to play and enjoy games like I did before.

Thankfully in the past few weeks, after yet another move, things have changed for the better. I've made some uncomfortable yet essential lifestyle changes, which in turn greatly reduced my depression. I still struggle with it from time to time, but nowhere near where it was before.

As such, I've been able to get back into old habits and finish off things which I left hanging. (Like this post right here. Whoa. Meta.) So yes, we'll see how well this goes into the future, but for now, things are actually looking quite good. :)

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